Hey guys, I’m really sorry that I’ve been absent for such a long time. This blog has kind of always been a diary and for a long time I had completely convinced myself that I was okay and I didn’t need to write a diary anymore. But I’m not okay, and I do need this blog.
I have written and re-written this post a million times in my head. It never comes out right, so I figured I should just write it already. Basically, what I’m saying is that I’m going to try and use this blog again.
Exams are a little less than four weeks away and I’m absolutely shitting myself. I have absolutely no idea how to cope other than to put my head down, barrel through them and cut myself. It’s hard, and I’m scared. Coping healthily is never easy and it’s a lot of work but I know that it’s worth it.
If any of you guys are in the same position, don’t be afraid to come and talk to me about it. I want to help. I started this blog in the first place for two reasons. One was to vent, the other was to help people. I want to help if I can.
Stay strong everyone. It feels good to be back. <3
The worst thing about a breakup is the feeling that you weren’t good enough. Now matter how special what you had was, it wasn’t enough. No matter how much you were loved, you weren’t worth it. I’m numb. I just want to run away. How can a love that was so special go so sour? How can somebody care so much and yet break you right to the fucking core? I’m done with love. I’m done with it all.